rindu

nak merasa nikmat hidup bukan semudah menikmati burger special.

nak merasa nikmat hidup bukan semudah menikmati buih-buih sabun.

nak merasa nikmat hidup bukan semudah menikmati manisnya isi durian. 

life is about fighting. 

rindu nak pergi elizabeth park, kuching. memang takde kena mengena gambar ni dengan caption jadah tu.

p/s: please just leave.

so funny

i dont know what is actually happening to me. i mean it just happened and i was like my goodness gracious ...... first is, few days ago, my tab was not working for undefined reason. i dont know.  syok2 scroll, tibatiba blank.

nasib ada satu lagi phone. nak dijadikan cerita, dia pun nak ikut jejak tab jugak :( i got smasheddd okay. so funny.

dugaan betul nak final ni. lagi dua minggu nak balik rumah. lambat lagiii.

p/s: jangan la laptop ni buat hal pulakkk.

condition

dah lama tak datang gastrik, tiba2 harini sakit pulak. Allahuakbar, sakitnya tak tahu nak describe. macam2 aksi dah aku buat, tak tahu lagi nak meniarap ke terlentang ke ape ke. haha . please, dont try this at home. semoga esok baik.

my way

And now the end is here,
And so I face the final curtain,
My friend,
I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case of which I'm certain,
I've lived a life that's full,
I traveled each and every highway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention,
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption,
I planned each charted course,
each careful step along the byway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way

Yes, there were times,
I'm sure you knew,
When I bit off more than I could chew,
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out,
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill, my share of losing,
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing,
To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way,
Oh no, oh no, not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught,
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels,
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way.

Yes, it was my way.

Frank Sinatra

Keberadaan

Bila keberadaan dipersoalkan,
Penat mencari makna kehidupan,
Bila satu nyawa ditarik Tuhan,
Baru sedar sebab dan tujuan.

Alfatihah untuk arwah Amir Rusydi. Semakin dekat kita dengan kematian. Sedar atau tak sedar.

Lets see

Begin with someone that want to knock you down.

Impact your whole life. I mean it changes for 360 as a whole and it appears like a dream.

They said, the most damaged is the great. But did they really faced that damage? Seriously, for real? Because i dont see the relevance for now.

Lets see how far that we got to catch and put this up.

Writing

Sometimes we want to write something but we dont have the idea of what it would be. All we know, it just a full of writing to be shared. It is weird when we keep trying to write about something on a piece of rubbish paper at least. Aha, we suddenly, got the idea of what that writing would be. We start to write but we dont know why the hell the process is blocked for other some times. It goes away, and we tend to nowhere. The idea that we dont know how to express it literally and we start to talk trash to our brain for not being useful when it needed. And then, we keep talking trash about thing that we had just faced it. All of sudden, we just realised that, our writing is about to reach half of one page. Ahh, it just happened to all of us right? *sigh. Idk what im nagging for. 

Sorry

Ada perkara yang kita takkan boleh faham and even to look at it deeply. But there is one thing i really do understand that not to drag people in your life if you dont have good faith towards that person. Tapi siapa kita nak melawan takdir with the existance of that person.

I dont even expect to have and face with this kind of situation. It just came in that way, in all of sudden, in unpredictable time, in all out of situations this planet could bring. Ahh, i should stay alone i guess. Im sorry. Penat dah.

Kelahiran

Keturunanku berkembang,
Dah jadi aunty rupanya.

Semoga jadi anak yang soleh,
Orang yang berguna.

p/s: tak tahu lagi apa nama baby boy ni. Aku anak ke4, apa gelaran aku ek?

Gambatte

Yes, i know this is going to be hard for me and the rest of final year students of degree. Taking a final year project course, doing on the narrow topic that need to do research on it. But, all of the hardness, it is worth to damn work of it. InsyaAllah. May be eased and blessed. No one knows how we could go for it. Just do it anyway. Lusa ada presentation fyp. Pray for me and i'll pray for us, final year student. Aminn. Chaiyok!

Middle

In the middle of craziness,
In the middle of awareness,
In the middle of business,
In the middle of goodness,
In the middle of happiness,
In the middle of sadness,
In the middle of gratefulness,
In the middle of life,
In the middle of everything,

I remember YOU.

Dream

Ya Tuhan, aku ada satu cita2 ni yang nak sangat aku capai. Dear Allah, grant me an ultimate strength and patience to go through this. The best Planner ever, guide me in getting this dream accomplished. All i need to do is keep it real. You can do it. Just time it matters.

Immersed

What to do,
No one cares anyway.

What to hold,
No one understands anyway.

What to care,
No one there anyway.

What to release,
No one receives anyway.

Im immersed with that.

Generator

Semalam tak tahan godaan. Aku dah cuba untuk tak beli. Tapi, tapi, tapi. Bila fikir2 balik, it is good having investment on books. Well, it might not be useful today, but it would be later. I believe that. Pesan arwah abah, kalau nak beli buku beli yang boleh generate minda time membaca.

Ruang dan masa

Hi,

Can anyone tell me how much space and time does someone needs to be back?

recent

yeah , blog makin simple dan tak sesak kepala .

entah kenapa aku tak suka blog yang berat dengan banyak warna selain warna putih . haha . bias la pulak kan .

so, this is it . azam untuk selalu update . ahh, eleh . azam konon . takpe2, i'll try my best . haha .

till then, bye .

is it ?

kata orang,

lebih baik menangis sekarang dari menangis di kemudian hari .

aku rasa masa-masa ni merupakan fasa ujian bagi aku, bagi dia, bagi mereka.

doa untuk aku, dia dan mereka supaya kuat dan supaya kami semua sedar akan hikmah di sebalik semua ni . aminn . 

dependency

When i was kid, the thing that i really wanted to do is being independent in any situation. Yet, there still have people that have a different kind of reliable towards others. We intend to pursue people in nice early conversation, but then we started to make people surrounding us annoyed. One situation is that when the first time we are in a strange place or situation and indirectly become nowhere. The level of dependency which is low that could cause us to ask such if-you-were-to-ask question. Aren’t we?

I know that we are growing in this world up in different environment and so much differs in style of education learned, but seriously we must act independently as we are facing the real world. People out there do not want to know what kind of problem you have or in going to have as we are in real life. Put thought that there is no such thing betrayal and selfish friends. Why am i saying this? 

As we grow up, friends are important but kindly remember that you should give yourself priority. You give this world shits, but remember as you fight life, life always wins. No matter how hard it is, you must get yourself wake up and move on. To those parents that have this kind of parent – children bonding, please put your trust in your children and takes a kite as fundamental of your life. It may goes moving through the air high, but you still can guide as it can’t go anywhere over your control. (ilham ni diambik dari filem hoore hoore . hehe )

p/s : entah kenapa aku rasa aku nak membebel . stress mungkin . or a part of practicing ? haha . tiada kena mengena yang hidup mahupun yang mati .

same

hi,

im back .

recently i went to kuala lumpur with the intention of significance (mine)

came back here yesterday.

same condition.

same problem.

same way round.

same, same, same.

different set of audience that i need to find out on my own. so, id like to tell to myself for being real , always being real. be strong because the only bestfriend that you can hold is you yourself , eternally.

seems like this semester is going to have different of what we always call , winding ups . haha .

university says ....

Ehem .

Aku dalam kelas ni . Waiting for lecturer and audience . Audience ? My friends la . Haha . Best tak pergi kelas sorang2 ? Pernah pergi kelas sorang2 sepanjang kat universiti . Jika anda selalu and used to it , aku tabik !

Anda seorang yang independent . Aku pun masih mencuba untuk tak ikut kawan , sebab their interest on certain lecturer berlainan . And schedule pun tak semua sama . So, dont give up . This is university , not school .

Alamak , tengah membebel ni , tiba-tiba kak fa nampak kite ade blog . Tak boleh nak berleter panjang . Hahaha .

Till then , bye !

baru

new semester as a third year student .

semoga aku bertahan untuk menghabiskan sisa tahun akhir ni di unimas , insyaAllah .

dan semoga aku tabah dalam menyiapkan FYP selama setahun . aminn .

weird !

it's weird when you believe in yourself,
yet people keep you drawning .

it's weird when you still hold on of something,
yet people drag you down .

it's weird when you give it in,
yet people keep talking trash .

people, special thank you for maturing me up .

exam !

assalamualaikum !

huii, petang-petang ni memang angin kuat semacam . bukan sepoi-sepoi bahasa dah ni . haha .

short update . dah start exam . wish me the best ! and i wish all of us the very best, fid dunnia wal akhirah :) aminn .

p/s : aku bakal merindui blog nih .

pagi ahad yang biasa-biasa saja

assalamualaikum *jawab salam . hari ahad yang nak kata gloomy tak jugak . nak kata shine pun tak jugak . jadi biasa-biasa saja . hehe . dari semalam aku terindu-rindu akan blog . chewahh . rasa kerinduan tu membuak-buak sampai awal-awal pagi tadi aku dah terpacak kat depan laptop . *over !

wokey , study week yang sedang berlangsung ni , aku takde apa-apa rancangan lagi melainkan duduk rumah study ler . haha . *tu pun kalau study lah -.-'' . makanya , bagi melengkapkan study week aku yang serba gloomy tak gloomy nih , aku nak buat satu task untuk diri sendiri . sumpah nak aku cerita pasal task tu kat korang , tapi tapi tapi .... arghh , aku rasa aku perlu buat dulu , baru aku boleh cerita . *erghh , baik tak payah cakap kan -.-'' . aku fikirkan task tu tadi waktu aku menikmati angin pagi kat tingkap . maka , tangan pun gatal nak snap pemandangan yang .... *sila isi tempat kosong .

view dari tingkat atas sekali . desa ilmu apartment .

konon nak menampakkan ketiadaan orang la -.-''

semoga study week ni Tuhan kekalkan semangat aku untuk belajar . aminn . semoga study week ni jugak aku dapat ubah sesuatu untuk masa depan aku . *macam besar je harapan . memang besar ! belum sampai waktu untuk aku cerita . sehebat mana kita merancang , kalau Tuhan tak izin , tak dapat jugak . sabar yang penting . so, till then . bye :D

preference of mine

assalamualaikum .

memang . memang saja aku tunggu sebulan lebih baru nak publish next entry . memang aku saja . haha . im fine . still in progressing of finishing this semester . masa memang cepat berlalu . serasa baru semalam aku tuntut bagasi di airport *hiperbola .

ohh . ohh . lupa nak cerita yang i just had my midsem break last week . yes, i went home *again . hakhak . orang jemput, kita balik lah . so, misi utama selain misi-misi yang lain ialah menghabiskan baucer buku . and i caught them last week . 

 

and . and . i dont know why am i get caught with this stuff for rm90 .

masa kecik-kecik this game would be one of the things that the siblings catch on . taruk bedak banyak-banyak on that surface of carrom kasi licin . haha . 

aku tahu waktu ni bukan waktu masa yang sesuai untuk layan or usha buku-buku yang aku beli sebab assignment lagi penting for now. tapi aku cuba jugak cari peluang untuk baca one of the book which "follow your heart" by andrew matthews. sangat superbbbbbb !!! seriously, di saat-saat aku down macam ni , buku ni sangat membantu . sungguh ! tak tipu ! you should get this book . 

tu je yang aku nak cerita . cuti dah habis brooo . sambung study -.-'' . seboleh mungkin aku akan luangkan masa update blog nih . kesian dia . and this is my last word .

"when you fight life, life always wins . when we fail to learn a lesson, we get to take it again ... and again! once we have learned the lesson, we move on to the next step . so just FOLLOW YOUR HEART :)"

p/s : everybody makes mistakes

very untitle .

assalamualaikum . hohohoi . blog tak ter update ekoran kesibukan dan ketiadaan gelombang yang membenarkan cerita-cerita ini tersebar . haha . sekarang dah ada dekat sarawak , dah mula pun sem baru . hehe . may all blessed . aminn . ok, this post pasal salah satu daripada aktiviti cuti aku haritu . memang dah lama . aku memang suka simpan buat pekasam .

aku taknak cerita full lagi . hehe . yes, aku memang suka akan unsur suspen . aku sebagai peneman je time ni , tapi ilmu yang aku dapat tu yang penting . this is encik iskanda ahmad , the head of maintenance in Vistana Hotel . 

next entry aku cerita macam mana aku boleh terjebak dalam interview ini . haha . perut terasa lapar . haruslah diisi dahulu . till then ! bye ! :D

rindu waktu sebegini .

tak semena-mena aku rindu . ada menusia yang sukakan kesibukan . ada manusia yang tak sanggup menghadapi kesibukan dalam hidup . tapi bagi aku , biar sibuk yang masih punya rehat . biar sibuk yang masih punya masa untuk tersayang . biar sibuk yang masih punya masa untuk diri sendiri . dan yang paling penting biar sibuk yang masih punya waktu untuk berbalik kepada Tuhan .

 

waktu ni aku jadi Liaison Officer (LO) untuk Minggu Aluan Pelajar tahun lepas . memang satu pengalaman yang sangat-sangat-sangat awesome !!! banyak yang aku belajar . dan aku rindu semuanya .

sebelum dinner

ohoi . ohoi . ohoi . hari ni aku rehat berjam-jam . remember with meeting and dinner MPMPP mentioned earlier ? sebab kelmarin team aku dah menjayakan satu event makan malam with dato mansor othman , timbalan menteri 1 p.pinang . we are led by kak masayu to run this event . so , first thing during the first meeting we carried out the organization . the project manager that being appointed is abg annas .

first and second meeting still lagi pening-pening pasal jumlah mahasiswa yang sedia ada we are collected . baru 240 . but surprisingly the last meeting we did managed to collect 0.4k something . maigadd . macam terlebih pulak . bajet 300 je . there are two probabilities , sama ada nanti terkurang orang atau terlebih orang . sebab meja yang ada dalam ballroom tu hotel letak 300 something je . but the last amount collected at the very last night before the day of event 440 something . whoaa . how mehh . at last , we did it ! having a great moment with them, my team . baru 3 kali jumpa dah rapat macam selalu jumpa . nanti aku sambung cerita lagi . nak choww dulu . ada kerja lain .

p/s : akhirnya , cuti aku dipenuhi dengan aktiviti . pengalaman . tambah kawan . alhamdulillah . bye ! nanti aku sambung .

random .

sedap kan bila makan nasi kukus dengan lauk ayam berempah . tadi aku try memang masyukk lah . lagi pedas lagi sedap . perghh . brrr . alhamdulillah . kenyang :D

aku tak rasa lagi nak cerita aktiviti aku time cuti nih . nanti aku kumpul banyak-banyak baru aku story . dasar pemalas . hahaha

cuma aku nak cakap insyaAllah hari isnin ni aku akan ke komtar lagi untuk last meeting sebelum dinner tu berlangsung . ohh , dinner jumaat minggu depan . tak sabar rasanya nak jumpa kawan-kawan sekolah balik . harap-harap diorang join . lepas dinner tu nanti busy dengan preparation wedding abang . may everything blessed . terasa cuti kali ni dipenuhi aktiviti yang bagus untuk aku belajar sesuatu .

ohh ye , earth hour bulan depan kan ? so, tadi aku ringan-ringan tangan jawab survey WWF . it's actually DIGI Earth Hour "Live Green" Pledge and Survey . ini link dia ! so bye :)

im home momma !

im home bebeh !

selamat sudah langgar awan :D

next activity will be updated soon .

tukar suit . going to be suri rumah yang berjaya !

bye !

read this !

assalamualaikum ,

this is what im going to say ;

"The trouble with beauty is feelings of superiority.

The trouble with generosity is extravagance.

The trouble with noble descent is sinful pride"

p/s : kejap lagi nak redah awan dah . doakan semua selamat . insyaAllah :D

selesai semester 1 tahun 2 :D

alhamdulillah .

masa cepat berlalu .

fokus pula kepada perkara yang satu itu .

semoga berjalan lancar .

goodbye semester 3 , welcome semester 4 :D

p/s : nak langgar awan hari jumaat ni . semoga semuanya selamat . miss my hometown .

down .

assalamualaikum .

what is actually happened to me ? since yesterday im having menstrual cramps until now . when i woke up this morning, the only thing that buzzed in my head was economics paper that will be seated at 2 pm . laptop tak boleh switched on pulak and all the informations on the powerpoint cant be read . eh hello , i'll be taking my examination at 2 pm and kenapa sekarang ???? nak berlagak cool konon pagi tadi , i was like pretending that everything's going smoothly and there's no problems to think of . so , aku pergi mandi . mandi lama-lama untuk hilangkan rasa serabut dekat kepala . tak tahu lah kenapa, it just an elective paper , tapi kenapa susah sangat . lebih susah dari belajar statistik . haha . for me lah .

lepas mandi , taknak pandang lappy langsung . konon merajuk . haha . rilek-rilek dulu , tiba-tiba .... i dont know why it wanted to be happened tadi . aku sure aku gastrik . tapi aku boleh tahan lagi . tak sakit sangat . so, aku kembali kepada lappy dan wahhh ......... dah boleh switch on . betapa bersyukurnya aku . err , banyak lagi tak revise kot . haha . dan ohhh tiba-tiba ... tiba-tiba perut aku sangat lah terasa dicucuk-cucuk . untuk control kan keadaan aku cool lahh . cari makanan . ohh , aku jumpa megi *is it a good idea to eat megi time gastrik ? hehe . aku bedal je . maka , selesai lah megi masuk dalam perut .

so, senang hati nak belajar . punya lah senang hati bagai mencurah-curah ilmu masuk dalam otak ni *alhamdulillah* tiba-tiba ..... tak semena-mena perasaan nak muntah datang dengan rakus sekali . maka dengan rakus jugak lah aku ke tandas untuk melepaskan segala-galanya . haha . *euww . at that time , memang sahh , lagi dicop aku memang gastrik . aku boleh beza lagi antara senggugut yang tengah menyerang ni dengan sakit gastrik . tapi aku diam je lah , sebab malas nak kecoh-kecoh . ada betulnya yati defy yang aku gastrik . sebabnya sedikit sebanyak otak aku pun TER mind set yang 'ehh , tak lah . bukan gastrik kot  . jangan layan ' . so, aku pun cool lagi . *aku sangat suka bajet cool .

aku dah takde mood lagi nak study . bukan salah aku , keadaan aku tak mengizinkan untuk aku terus fokus . *hahahah -.-'' . nak seribu daya nadia . kisah pasal perut sakit tu berlanjutan sampai ke dewan exam . mujur anim hantarkan ke dewan tadi . sampai dekat dewan tahu pulak aku bukak buku . hahah . sampai ke titisan peluh la katakan . dannn . i dont want to talk about economics paper . taknak . taknak . damnn , apsal susah weh , elektif je kot . eh , aku terbagi tahu -.-''

starting from carry marks , i have a lil bit worries because to get an A it is ............. err . hurmm . nevermind lah . hahah . whatever it is , i managed to answer the questions . it's all turn to the Right to value me . semua orang mengharapkan yang terbaik . so, selagi boleh doa , moh la kita berdoa to get the best path given by Him . insyaAllah . so, pengajarannya , jangan study last minute walaupun best study last minute and jaga kesihatan time exam . and yang penting kuat semangat . *ohh . this part is my hardest block to get knowledged by others . dah , jangan sedih . ok , bye !

swee kang a.k.a ais kacang sarawak :)

assalamualaikum .

i've learned so much things today . i dont even want to talk about my paper just now . but after doing the exam , anim asked me and yati to go out to swee kang . kedai yang dah lama aku nak pergi . swee kang is actually ais kacang for sarawakian . even this stall had been known through the television . but tak pasti pulak rancangan mana . JJCM maybe :)

kalau sebut ais kacang memang sangat 'nyaman' kalau dimakan waktu panas . jangan cakap lah kalau tengah terik-terik tu kan . everyone looking for AIS . sepanjang aku duduk sini lebih setahun , aku baru tahu kewujudan kedai swee kang . poor me . different menus are provided rarely yang kita jumpa . berlapis-lapis color jangan cakap lah . tak tahu nak pilih . but my preference when im getting there surely ais duriannn :D im loving it . semangkuk rm3 . berbaloi . trust me !

and then menu yang ada kat tengah-tengah meja is sotong kangkung . so yummy . seriously . eh , tak tahu lah nak cakap macam mana . after melantak , we just went home . but on the way back , ive learned the word 'pusuk' . because tak semena-mena anim did mentioned me as 'pusuk bermata pusak' . pusak is kucing , which i already informed . but i just do not get any ideas what pusuk really is . lama-lama dapat tahu pusuk tu 'ikan bilis' . cehh !! ikan bilis . HAHA . tak glamour langsung pusuk . tapi pusuk-pusuk pun sedap jugak kalau dibuat sambal kan . hahah . *anim is cooking that sambal pusuk now . haha . kempunan , she said .

so, that's it . pelajaran hari ini . dapat makan AIS DURIAN . dapat makan sotong kangkung . dapat tahu perkataan baru 'pusuk'  .




im sorry because this picture sponsered by google . the half way of eating this i just noticed that ive to snap a picture of this but its too late . im so hungry to think about-snap-stuff before im eating it . hehehe .

so, bye .

cita-cita .

pernah rasa bila keputusan yang kita buat dipersoalkan . bukan dari seorang dua .

pernah rasa bila pilihan yang kita buat untuk masa depan dipersoalkan .

pernah rasa bila cita-cita ditentukan .

apa cita-cita aku ? tunggu dan lihat .